How much time you can cry without feelings your tears running down your cheeks?
How much pain your heart can hold?
How much suffering your soul can grief?
You were such a beautiful dream, you were the happiness of my life, you were, indeed, my life itself.
And now you're gone and I can only hide myself under black sheets because your memories keep hitting me.
And now I'm alone in this world without your words and voice, without your feelings and love.
Everybody is scaring me.
Everybody is hurting me.
And now I can only cry in the darkness of my heart because I don't know where you are.
Waiting every second of my hours, every hour of my days for just a couple words of yours.
Even if I'm trying to be strong, my inside is so ruined, I can't do anything else, I just can miss you.
And the world is falling apart without you, and everything is so cold.
Is that bad that I want you back? Is that bad that I want to believe you even though everyone is telling me not to.
I want to believe what you told me, but many doubts are rotting my heart.
Everything you told me cannot be a lie.
I love you Katie, and I pray whichever Gods to bring you back to me.
